this looked intresting. ):
trust anji to pick all the intresting stuff to do.
*shot*
Ten Open Spaces, to say to people what you really think.
Don't say who they are. Never mention it again.
*flail*
1. ....gah. i dunno what to say about you. you're like a male equivelent of me. at first? i hated your guts. honestly, and i think most people know that now. now? i couldnt live without you. so many rumours follow me, but hey, thats what you get when you get a dani maccy in your life. its clear to see im obsessive over you, but its hard to explain. ive loved, and gave up on it. you brought back that little spark of love left in my heart and it blossomed. i really dont care if people dont like the fact ive changed a bit, really, i dont. im actually a bit happier this way. now, ...i know i scare you, but its true i cant live without you. you make me smile, laugh, and you give me all the annoying & arguments to last me a lifetime, but hey. what can i say kid? i love you. put up with me, understand, as youve always done. ill never forget any second ive spent with you, and i honestly love you to death. i swear we wont have any omgwesoundlikeamarriedcouple fights, okay? okay. and im confused over love, again, and its all your fault. you meanie. : )then again, i am probably a bit too obsessive and clingy. i make up things alot, and i keep thinking about you. again and again... i cant really stop it. you have this hold and you dont even know. haha, i guess you dont realise your charm. i had a weird dream once. it was snowing, and we were in the snow together. i was sad, but you made me smile, and i couldnt hold it in any longer. i grabbed you by the scarf and kissed you. it was so adorable, i had to draw it. obviously, no one will ever see it, but i found it odd. i mean, i cant be in love with you, thats just stupid, right? i dont do love. i guess youre just... you. but dont change that. i love you that way. : )
2. you annoy me to death, my dear. the change in your attitude and persona is just... i cant describe. its true. i *dont* want to care about you, but guess what? i do. i cant stand the fact im so forgiving and ...well, i cant stand the person i am. you really need to drive it into your thick little childish skull, i. dont. want. to. tell. you. things. its not because i dont trust you, its far from that, its because its who i am. if you dont like it, deal with it sweetheart, but ive dealt with your annoyingness enough to last me a lifetime. theres probably not a spark left, but i feel the need to work on this. i dont do letting people down, its not my forté one bit. the world doesnt hate you, just shut up and deal with the facts of life.
3. honestly? you broke my heart basically. i dont know why im continuing this. why should i? i give everything for people like you. everything. i shed tears over people like you. i would *die* for people like you, but you just turned out to be fake. i do still care, and id love to continue along this path, but theres a few constant hurdles i just cant get over. i know she means more to you then i do, so... hm. i guess im too forgiving. if i had a backbone, i wouldnt of continued but hey. guess what? youve got me still. lucky you, eh? its a good job i can remember what weve *had*, and i can turn another leaf. deal with me, i deal with you.
4. ...to put this simply, i miss you alot. you made me laugh and smile, and youd actually listen. you found my jokes funny, and youd compliment everything i did. duh, you had your downsides. you went to far, you were annoying at points, and you were a bit ...i dunno. i cant describe it. honestly, everyone thought i was in love with you. that hug i gave you, and the amount of times i cried that day that we parted. i couldnt bring myself to say goodbye, and i still regret that. if only i could have said "goodbye, ill miss you. i love you buddy.", but then again, my life has just been full of if onlys. id love to see you again, just for one day. id spill everything! id tell you about everyone, how i have two new besties really, and how one resides in a completely different country... everything! id love to just spill the beans and tell you whats happened. i wonder how you are, alot. i wonder if youve grown, or got better at what i taught you. i wonder if you miss me, but then i look back at the letter you sent and i can tell you do. id love if you said hello to her for me, for old times sake. oh, and our other one? she doest seem to care anymore. but thats okay. i had a dream the other day... we were reunited. the three we were. you met him, and got along. you made me laugh forever. we caused so much trouble, and it was such an awesome dream. im so glad you played a part in my life. just wrting this made me smile. thank you. : )
5. i love you, but youre silly dude. not everyone hates you, infact, i doubt anyone does! i dont, she doesnt, lots of people dont! open your eyes man. i dont want you to wind up... depressed. you know. especially if you were to find out and follow in my footsteps. honestly, i want one day to sit down with you, on the field, by that tree i almost fell asleep by with the contents of my pockets hurting my boob, her breaking her watch... i want to sit by that tree and just talk. youre a very intresting and intelligent boy, and i dont want you to think so negatively anymore. throw yourself out there! make friends! people will like you, you just have to give it a try. oh, and he doesnt hate you, hes just a silly. : ) boys suck. i know. but so do girls. ;D
6. how did i find someone like you? the best thing to happen really. youre like me, you understand, you care, you listen. ...damn, you do everything. ;D *shot* eh, i feel no need to drag this one out. you'll figure it out anyways, but how was i gonna go through a thing like this and nooooooot mention you, eh? i love you miss, and i will marry you. *shot*
7. you really need to get your priorities straight. i beg you, tears sheding, and you think its a laughing matter? i dont care what he *was*, he isnt anymore. deal with it. hes not exactly helping anyone. and no, i dont need to grow up. if anything, i need to grow down... im 13. im still a child. just shut up and listen for once without butting in, and please, for my sake, learn to understand. just understand not everyones the same. no, im not special, im *different*. live with it.
8. ...i miss you more then words can describe. my best friend. i told you everything even if you didnt understand. ...i wont drag it out. youre in a better place. i dont care if you werent human, you loved me and the feeling was neatural. i love you so much.
9. i miss you too. good job we have that one person in common, and when she does have a chance to talk to you, she informs me, even if i dont want to hear most of the time. my opinion? i hate him and i always will, for what hes done to you. hes a fuck. lol. k? k.
10. ...i never thought these words would come, but hey! guess what? youre my hero! i think you get it even if i dont mention it like, at all. i wish i was you. youre brave, youve saved peoples and *his* life, youre intelligent, social, loving, likeable, funny... everything i try to be. i look up to you, and hey, im sorry im constantly calling you an asshole but its my job. thank you for turning it on its head, as you always do. : )
that was great. xD
*flails away*
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